Now Playing: I Need an Energy

I Need an Energy
Greg Holden

There's not a thing that you could say that could talk me down,
From all the things that I eat, sleep and dream about.
I've got a feeling that the whole world is watching now, oh
But I'm alone for the final minute of this hour.

I need a lift, I need a shake,
I need to find another chance that I can take,
I need a fight, I need an energy,
I need something that will take me quickly.
I gotta just let go-whoa-oh
I gotta just let go-whoa-oh

In my dreams there was a whole lot more than this
Now I wander for the journeys that I chose to miss
For a feeling I have chased almost all my life
It sure feels that it's burning for the final time, oh

I need a lift, I need a shake,
I need to find another chance that I can take,
I need a fight, I need an energy,
I need something that will take me quickly.
I gotta just let go-whoa-oh
I gotta just let go-whoa-oh

It's all that I know, it's all that I see,
It's all that's been here controlling me
It's all that I know, it's all that I see...

I need a lift, I need a shake,
I need to find another chance that I can take,
I need a fight, I need an energy,
I need something that will take me quickly.
I gotta just let go-whoa-oh
I gotta just let go-whoa-oh
I gotta just let go-whoa-oh
I gotta just let go-whoa-oh
I gotta just let go-whoa-oh
I gotta just let go-whoa-oh

Now Playing: Heaven

Photo source here.

"Heaven (Little By Little)"
Theory of a Deadman


Now don't you be afraid
We can always talk about it
No need to medicate
Cause I know you're strong without it
You got me through the days
When I thought I couldn't face it
Let me count the ways
The love we have you can't replace it

Just hold on, I'm not that strong

There's a little piece of heaven
Right here where you are
The fact that you keep trying
Is what sets you apart.
Help me find the reason
And I'll help you find the way
To get rid of all your pain
Little by little, day by day

Now, you're far away
And I'm alone to cry about it
It's not a better place,
When you die and leave me here to say

Hold on, I was never that strong

There's a little piece of heaven
Right here where you are
The fact that you keep trying
Is what sets you apart.
Help me find the reason
And I'll help you find the way
To get rid of all your pain
Little by little, day by day

You'll get stronger
If you need me, I'm not far away
So, just hold on
I'll help you find a way
I'll help you find the way

There's a little piece of heaven
Right here where you are
The fact that you keep trying
Is what sets you apart.
Help me find the reason
And I'll help you find the way
To get rid of all your pain
Little by little, day by day

This is my answer to this song.

Now Playing: Lady

Photo source here.

LADY
Little River Band

Look around you, look up here
Take time to make time
Make time to be there
Look around, be a part
Feel for the winter
But don't have a cold heart

And I love you best
You're not like the rest
You're there when I need you
You're there when I need
I'm gonna need you

A long time ago
I had a lady to love
She made me think of things
I never thought of
Now she's gone and I'm on my own
A love song has come into my mind
A love song
It was there all the time

So lady
Let me take a look at you now
You're there on the dance floor
Making me want you somehow
Oh lady
I think it's only fair
I should say to you
Don't be thinkin' that I don't want you
'Cause maybe I do

[Instrumental Interlude]

Look around, come to me
I have no answers
But know where I wanna be
I look around, play a part
I was born in the winter
And cooled by a warm heart

And I love you best
You're not like the rest
You're there when I need you
You're there when I need
I'm gonna need you

So lady
Let me take a look at you now
You're there on the dance floor
Making me want you somehow
Oh lady
I think it's only fair I should say to you
Don't be thinkin' that I don't want you
'Cause maybe I do
Don't be thinkin' that I don't want you
Lady I do

- A dear friend gave me this song and I promised I won't forget. -

Now Playing: In My Veins

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"In My Veins"

Nothing goes as planned
Everything will break
People say goodbye
In their own special way
All that you rely on
And all that you can fake
Will leave you in the morning
But find you in the day

Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh, you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away
'Cause I am not what you found
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out

Everything will change
Nothing stays the same
Nobody here's perfect
Oh, but everyone's to blame
Oh, all that you rely on
And all that you can save
Will leave you in the morning
And find you in the day

Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh, you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away
'Cause I am not what you found
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out

(No, I cannot get you out)
(No, I cannot get you)
(Oh no, I cannot get you out)
(No, I cannot get you)

Everything is dark
It's more than you can take
But you catch a glimpse of sun light
Shining, shining down on your face
On your face
(On your face)

Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh, you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away
'Cause I am not what you found
Oh, you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
(No)

No, I cannot get you out
(Oh, you're in my veins)
No, I cannot get you out
Oh no, I cannot get you

Now Playing: Guaranteed

GUARANTEED

Eddie Vedder

OST - Into the Wild

On bended knee is no way to be free
Lifting up an empty cup, I ask silently
All my destinations will accept the one that's me
So I can breathe...

Circles they grow and they swallow people whole
Half their lives they say goodnight to wives they'll never know
A mind full of questions, and a teacher in my soul
And so it goes...

Don't come closer or I'll have to go
Holding me like gravity are places that pull
If ever there was someone to keep me at home
It would be you...

Everyone I come across, in cages they bought
They think of me and my wandering, but I'm never what they thought
I've got my indignation, but I'm pure in all my thoughts
I'm alive...

Wind in my hair, I feel part of everywhere
Underneath my being is a road that disappeared
Late at night I hear the trees, they're singing with the dead
Overhead...

Leave it to me as I find a way to be
Consider me a satellite, forever orbiting
I knew all the rules, but the rules did not know me
Guaranteed 

Now Playing: Fade Into You

Fade Into You 

Mazzy Star

I wanna hold the hand inside you
I wanna take the breath that's true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth

You live your life, you go in shadow
You'll come upon and you'll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Close your eyes with what's not there

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew

The strange light comes on slowly
A stranger's heart is out of home
You put your hands into your head
And your smiles cover your heart 

Video from here.

Now Playing: Wishingbone

Photo source here.

Wishingbone

Artist: Winter People

Do not look for me
In the summer heat
Do not look for me
In the autumn leaves

“It’s the moment in a travelling journey where you’re in a desolate, empty plain and you come across a wishingbone picked clean by the wind, buried in the sand. It’s the point in the journey where you question the worth of setting out in the first place.” 

- Dylan Baskind, Vocals, Winter People in his description of the song Wishingbone.

SOURCE: Winter People's Wishingbone, Unplugged from PORTABLE

Watch the acoustic version of the band from here.


Let me mention one Youtube comment that describes exactly how I find the song:

"you just expect it to keep on going, unfortunately it has to stop"

TheSilentProgressor 1 month ago

Now Playing: Bent

Artist: Matchbox 20

Album: Mad Season

If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk

If I need some other love, then
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again

Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Oh, just hold me again

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

If I couldn't sleep, could you sleep?
Could you paint me better off?
Could you sympathize with my needs?
I know you think I need a lot

I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Oh, just breaking the skin

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Start bending me, it's never enough
As I feel all your pieces
Start bending me, keep bending me
Oh, until I'm completely broken in

Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Oh, just touch me again

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me will let them
Without understanding
Here I go there again

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together
Yeah, you're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Now Playing: Straightjacket Feeling

Photo source here.

Artist: All American Rejects

Album: Move Along

Back me down from backing up

Hold your breath now it's stacking up

Etched with marks, but I can deal

And you're the problem and you can't feel

Try this on, straightjacket feeling

So maybe I won't be alone

Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell

But today, I'm fine without you

Runaway this time without you

And all I ever thought it would be

That face is tearing holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense

Off a list of others, you don't make sense

Beg me time and time again

To take you back now, but you can't win

Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell

But today, I'm fine without you

Runaway this time without you

And all I ever thought it would be

That face is tearing holes in me again

But today, I'm fine without you

Runaway this time without you

And all the things you put me through

I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when that memory slips away

There will be a better view from here

And only lonesome you remain

And just the thought of you I fear

It falls away

Yesterday was hell

But today, I'm fine without you

Runaway this time without you

And all I ever thought you would be

That face is tearing holes in me again

But today, I'm fine without you

Runaway this time without you

And all the things you put me through

I'm holding on by letting go of you

Listen to the song from here. 

Now Playing: I'm So Sick

I will break into your thoughts

With what’s written on my heart

I will break, break

I’m so sick, infected with

Where I live

Let me live without this

Empty bliss, selfishness

I’m so sick

I’m so sick

If you want more of this

We can push out, sell out, die out

So you’ll shut up

And stay sleeping

With my screaming in your itching ears

I’m so sick, infected with

Where I live

Let me live without this

Empty bliss, selfishness

I’m so sick

I’m so sick

Hear it, I’m screaming it

You’re heeding to it now

Hear it, I’m screaming it

You tremble at this sound

You sink into my clothes

This invasion makes me feel

Worthless, hopeless, sick

I'm So Sick is from one of my favorite bands, Flyleaf. Lacey is one of the best female vocalists I have ever heard. She can scream with perfection, if such exists.

The  Story

This song was released during a stage in my life that I wanted to end. I was sick of all the negative things happening around me. I was sick of neglecting my family. I was sick of forgetting who I was and what I really want. I was sick of pretending to be another person.  I was screaming inside but no voice was coming out. My voice falls on deaf ears. I was infected and I couldn't get out of it. It scared the hell out of me and I knew that if I don't move out, I'd sell out. 

You may listen to the song thru this link.

WARNING: It's loud. ;)

Now Playing: Home

Home

(Phillip Phillips’ Coronation Song in American Idol S11)

Hold on, to me as we go

As we roll down this unfamiliar road

And although this wave is stringing us along

Just know you’re not alone

Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Settle down, it’ll be clear

Don’t pay no mind to the demons

They fill you with fear

The trouble it might drag you down

If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone

Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Settle down, it’ll all be clear

Don’t pay no mind to the demons

They fill you with fear

The trouble it might drag you down

If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone

Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Home was co-written by Drew Pearson and Greg Holden. Pearson cited Mumford and Sons and Arcade Fire as the song’s influences. (Wikipedia)

Listen to the song from this link.

Now Playing: How He Loves

How He Loves

David Crowder Band

http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/Evils%20in%20America/CCM/david_crowder_band.jpg

(Verse 1)

He is jealous for me

Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree

Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy

When all of a sudden

I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory

And I realize just how beautiful You are

And how great Your affections are for me

(Pre-Chorus)

And O how He loves us

Oh, O how He loves us

How He loves us all

(Chorus)

Yeah He loves us

O how He loves us

O how He loves us

O how He loves

(Verse 2)

We are His portion and He is our prize

Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes

If His grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking

So Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss

And my heart turns violently inside of my chest

I don’t have time to maintain these regrets

When I think about the way…

YouTube Here
Kim Walker version here.

Now Playing: More Than Anyone

Photo source here.

This song is for my kid.

"More Than Anyone"

You need a friend
I'll be around
Don't let this end
Before I see you again
What can I say to convince you
To change your mind of me?

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone

Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone

Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together baby
Free together baby

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before

The Lives of Dave and Grace: The Song

Photo from Bryce Kiguchi.

He had been talking about this song he wanted her to hear. She didn’t have the time or more like they didn’t have a chance to actually listen to it until that night he brought her home after a tiring trip to places she had never been to. He wouldn’t let this day end without her hearing it. He grabbed her laptop and searched for it.

He played it.

She was in awe and secretly catching her breath but she couldn’t stop the tears that fell from her eyes as if they have a mind of their own. So she laid on his lap and cried like a baby with thoughts of sadness filling her. She knew it’s going to be the song she’s gonna listen to when all these end.

A day before her last day, they went out to eat. There was an unbearable silence when his Ipod started playing this song. 

“Will we ever see each other again?”

“Will there be an ‘after’ after this?”

“How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?”

“Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?”


She heard the word she wanted to hear from him. This isn't the first time he said it but it always felt like it was. 


"Stay", he said while keeping his eyes glued to the road which worked to her advantage. 


She knew she probably couldn't say 'No' to him. She didn't say anything. At least not aloud. "I want to. I wish I could."

Just the thought of it brings unexplainable combination of acceptance and resistance. They both knew it could be the last but somehow somewhere in that acceptance is a little piece of resistance so powerful that it could change everything if they were just willing to give it a chance.

But they knew better. “Some of the best moments in life may not be meant to be forever but they can be if we choose to keep them in our hearts no matter the ending”, she thought.

It will be the song that will bring her back to the memory of him and their journey closer to God whether or not they end up together. It was song of faith, a song that honors the One. 

God, You're all that we need. You are more than enough. You are everything.

EVERYTHING

Lifehouse

Find Me Here

Speak To Me

I want to feel you

I need to hear you

You are the light

That's leading me

To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength that keeps me walking.

You are the hope that keeps me trusting.

You are the light to my soul.

You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.

You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.

You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.

Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, you’re all I need

You're everything, everything

You're all I want your all I need

You're everything, everything.

You're all I want you're all I need.

You're everything, everything

You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? 

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fjDojEOiMcE

Colgando En Tus Manos, Nicaragua

Colgando En Tus Manos, Nicaragua

In my desperation to practice Spanish I recently shared this song with a good friend, who is also into Spanish version songs; so I have an excuse to sing it and at least there's one person who wouldn't think am crazy while doing it in between piles of work in the office. I'm glad he actually liked it. We sing it even while working and are persuading others to do the same. In exchange, am learning a Japanese song - which I am very, very poor at (at the moment).

Although the song came from Venezuela and popularized by Carlos Baute con Marta Sanchez, this song embodies my memory of my second home, Nicaragua.  Espero que les guste!  

I dedicate this to all my friends in Nicaragua.

Quizá no fue coincidencia encontrarme contigo...

(Maybe it wasn't a coincidence to meet you)
Tal vez esto lo hizo el destino...

(Maybe it was destiny's work)

Quiero dormirme de nuevo en tu pecho...

(I want to fall asleep in your chest again)

y después me despierten tus besos.

(and be awakened by your kisses)

Tu sexto sentido sueña conmigo,

(Your sixth sense dreams of me)
se que pronto estaremos unidos.

(I know that soon, we'll be together)
Esa sonrisa traviesa que vive conmigo.

(That naughty smile that lives with me)
se que pronto estaré en tu camino.

(I know that soon I will cross your path)

Sabes que estoy colgando en tus manos,

(You know I'm hanging from your hands)
asi que no me dejes caer.

(So don't let me fall)
Sabes que estoy colgando en tus manos.

(You know I'm hanging from your hands)

Te envío poemas de mi puño y letra.

(I send poems, which I wrote myself, to you)
Te envío canciones de 4:40.

(I send 4:40 songs to you)
Te envío las fotos cenando

(I send the photos of our dinner)
en Marbella y cuando estuvimos por Venezuela.

(In Marbella and the ones from when we were in Venezuela)

Y así me recuerdes y tengas presente,

(So that you can remember and keep me in your mind)
que mi corazón está colgando en tus manos.

(Since my heart is hanging from your hands)
Cuidado, cuidado, que mi corazon està colgando en tus manos.

(Be careful, be careful, since my heart is hanging from your hands)

No perderé la esperanza de hablar contigo.

(I won't lose hope about talking to you)
No me importa que dice el destino.

(I don't care about what destiny says)
Quiero tener tu fragrancia conmigo.

(I want to have your fragrance with me)
Y beberme de ti todo lo prohibido.

(And drink from you everything that is not allowed)

Sabes que estoy colgando en tus manos,

(You know I'm hanging from your hands)
asi que no me dejes caer.

(So don't let me fall)
Sabes que estoy colgando en tus manos.

(You know I'm hanging from your hands)

Te envío poemas de mi puño y letra.

(I send poems, which I wrote myself, to you)
Te envío canciones de 4:40.

(I send 4:40 songs to you)
Te envío las fotos cenando

(I send the photos of our dinner)
en Marbella y cuando estuvimos por Venezuela.

(In Marbella and the ones from when we were in Venezuela)

Y así me recuerdes y tengas presente,

(So that you can remember and keep me in your mind)
que mi corazón está colgando en tus manos.

(Since my heart is hanging from your hands)
Cuidado, cuidado, mucho cuidado, cuidado.

(Be careful, be careful, be very careful, be careful)

Marta yo te digo me tienes en tus manos.

(Marta, I tell you, you haev me in your hands)
Cuidado, mucho cuidado.

(Be careful, be very careful)

No importa que diga el destino quedate conmigo

(It doesn't matter what destiny says, stay with me)
cuidado, mucho cuidado,

(Be careful, be very careful)

Lo quiero todo de ti

(I want everything from you)
Tus labios, tu cariño, lo prohibido.

(Your lips, your love, that which is not allowed)

Te envío poemas de mi puño y letra.

(I send poems, which I wrote myself, to you)
Te envío canciones de 4:40.

(I send 4:40 songs to you)
Te envío las fotos cenando

(I send the photos of our dinner)
en Marbella y cuando estuvimos por Venezuela.

(In Marbella and the ones from when we were in Venezuela)

Y así me recuerdes y tengas presente,

(So that you can remember and keep me in your mind)
Que mi corazon està colgando en tus manos
cuidado, cuidado...

Que mi corazon està colgando en tus manos
que mi corazon està colgando en tus manos
que mi corazon estò colgando en tus manos

(Since my heart is hanging from your hands)

(english translation: anonymous)