The Grace to win the
Race
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| Dec. 17, 2011 Batangas, PH |
After the 7-Day
Prayer and Fasting, I hit rock bottom.
You read it right. I
did. Ironic as it may sound, it is true.
Ptr. Robert was right;
we will hit walls after walls after walls. I did not know it will start right after
that week. I was empty and with no sense of direction. For days, I was detached
from who I am. Worse, I stopped seeking Him. I was too afraid to make a mistake
and too careful to even move. I was lost.
Today, I chose to
move.
330AM. “I can do this”, I bravely told myself.
I geared up, went
out and ran for an hour. I ran and ran until I could feel the warmth of the
sweat on my nape against the very cold air. I ran like it was the last and
stopped when I can no longer catch my breath. It was on my 4th round
that I noticed I wasn’t alone. I was with this very old man slowly walking with what seemed to be improvised walking cane made out of wood, rubber and used
clothing. He had probably been there even before I arrived. He was very slow
and my four rounds could probably have been his one round. He smiled at me as
if he had seen me pass by him many times. I was so preoccupied to notice. Plus
I don’t really smile to strangers especially while running in the wee hours of
the morning.
My pacing became
slower after I noticed him. I became aware of the faces of the people I pass
by. I heard the ‘taho’ vendor. I saw
the dog crossing the street and stopped to ensure it manages to. I smiled at
the sight of three old ladies on their slippers about to start their ‘morning
jog’. I saw a familiar face, a former neighbor. I saw the old man again and
this time I smiled back.
I was humbled. The Lord made me realized that
I don’t have to always run to win the race. I can walk and then run again after
gaining the strength I need. I can be a little bit slow and see things clearly.
I can enjoy the ride. I can walk and still finish the race. I do not have to be
in a hurry all the time.
As long as I don’t stop,
I know that with God’s grace, the end to this race is guaranteed victory.
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